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Friday, December 26, 2008

1:56 PM

I am feeling very frustrated. After so long of not blogging, but here I am now blogging abt the frustration that I am feeling.

It started as a small matter but I do not expect the matter to blow up to the extend that I cannot take the pressure and humiliation that had been going on.

It all started with from an SMS to phone call and then it drag.....

This particular important matter was inform to me via SMS in which I took the initiative to at elast call the best nearest point ot contact abt the important matter. Somehow or rather, this person do not get the message for god knows what reason, and I am being blamed for not informing them.

It all started with comments from that person to others and I got to know the comments later.
I ignore it at first and thought that it had simmered down until I heard abt the latest comment made abt me.

"Aku dah menyampah tgk muka si Siti tu!"

i chose to ignore it at first but since the last incident that happen, it makes me rethink back it is true. Your small reaction towards me already reflected so much.

It was not conveyed to me directly but I heard it from someone.
This has made me even frustrated and not sure if I shld respect that person anymore.
For years I look you up as an elder and shows respect to you since I even know how to walk.
Just because of a small matter and you blew it up to the extend and made such comment.

I am truly hurt, deeply hurt. It makes me wonder if I am ever needed in any more gathering or should I make myself scarce!!!!
Since people respect you so much and tends to listen to you alot, then I better make myself scarce.
Not because I am feeling guilty but giving you the space to see the people whom you prefer to see and its not me.
I am no longer part of the group, your group and others rite.

I may have put up a brace front but inside, I am deeply hurt by the comment.
They may ask me to ignore abt it, even if I do, you will not forget it.

What wrong have I dobe to deserve that comment from you???
I may have not support you financially but morally and physically, I have been there for you.

Don't I have my pride as well????
You may get all the supporters you want and I may get none...
but in actually fact, I have the support of my loved ones. They are there for me...and they know that I am not at fault.

Sad, frustrated, betrayed, hurt...noone knows it better than I do.

Another gathering coming up and I am giving it millions of thoughts in whether I should be present or not.

My frustration.......My blog.....

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

11:01 AM

With the newly bought drum set...

Here comes...

The Best Drummer in town... and Back by popular demand...

Presenting....

MUHD ANIQ..... *throw confetti*

Thursday, December 04, 2008

11:00 AM

Aaryan...dats his name.
Born on 3 December 2008 at 7.04 am.
Weighs 2.7kg and 33cm long.
Mother: Nor Azilah
Father: Muhd Izwan

The new addition of nephew in the family.

Ain't he adorable!
His hair is brown in colour.
He is fair just like the father.
His eyes are mixture of chinese and malay.
Haha..

Welcome to the world, swithart.

Congratulations to you my cousin, Nor Azilah.
Welcome to Motherhood!